Thursday, September 22, 2016


All my bags are packed, and we are about to be leaving on a jet plane.  I'm heading to Rwanda with the organization Africa New Life and five other women.  We're leaving our children and husbands and embarking on a great adventure.  I'm so excited and traveling truly lights me up inside, but I gotta say, the last 24 hours have been rough.

I know in my bones that I am meant to be on this trip.  So many things are pointing me to Rwanda, and I can't wait to get there and see all that God has planned.  I know this is the right move.

That said, it is not easy.  Last night, I broke down sobbing with the sheer hardness of it.  I don't want my husband to do so much extra work.  I don't want my children to miss me.  As tears were streaming down my face and snot dripping out of my nose, John gently reminded me that doing the right thing is not usually easy.  In fact, most good things require going uphill.  He also said that I was making it all about me, which was hard to hear, but true.  I don't want life to be about me, though I have to fight my flesh at every turn.

So, we are headed off to a far flung place.  But, I know there will be new friends and new places to love.  And most importantly, this is where God wants me, so it is the absolutely best place for me to be.


And then there's this quote that I heard at church last week that confirmed it all over again.

We can be drunk with private concerns and indifferent to the great enterprise of world evangelization, but God will simply pass over us and do his great work while we shrivel up in our little land of comfort. -John Piper
Here's to not shriveling!  We met up with a few other girls in Atlanta and are about to head to Amsterdam.  Praying for safe travel, a sweet trip and mercies on the home front.