Thursday, December 27, 2012


Our backyard, taken from a friend at our house yesterday.


I'll go ahead and say it. I have no real business writing a post about having no power since I got to my house for the first time at 6:15 tonight.

Glad I got that off my chest.

That said, I am going to write one anyway, since I am sitting by the fire in my dark home and learned how to blog from my phone today. Honestly, it's been a hard day. And not because anything has been that hard. I just feel off-kilter inside. Like I started tearing up while placing my order at CFA kind of off-kilter.


I am regularly amazed at my own depravity and the ways that I make life all about me. That has been in full effect today to no one's benefit. I have been reading in Proverbs lately, and I have taken note of all the verses that talk about how terrible it is to live with a contentious woman. Most of the time, I would not fit the bill, but today I have felt powerless (do you like that play on words?) to make myself behave differently. I have been short with John and the girls. I have been a bit sulky. I have made life about me.

Which always turns out badly.

And never reflects what God has for me, which is that I should look first at him and then at others. Some days that seems the hardest to do. I know all the right things in my head, but I need to ask God to work inside my heart to help me believe the right things and live them out in ways that bring glory to him. Starting with treating my family as the precious gifts they are instead of feeling all of the inconveniences that are really so minor in the grand scheme of things.

It's amazing what a bird's eye, grand scheme kind of perspective can do for you. Praying that I can get more of it, straight from the breath of God. I certainly need it.

And really, we have it oh so good. The girls are now sleeping soundly in front of the fireplace, and John and I are about to enjoy s'mores. Camping in the living room is fun!


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Here are links to the other days:
Day Two